The Anorexic Perfectionist….

Every once in a while, I miss my ‘old self’.  The one who, in my 20’s, was an anorexic perfectionist.  Days like today – when I put on a t-shirt and see that my arms are much  less toned than I would like.  But the feeling is fleeting.  In part because my husband is making pizza for dinner 🙂   Even more because I love life now.  Not every day though.  There are many days I wonder if I made the biggest mistake ever in deciding to become a professional artist.

It’s not an easy journey.  From the outside looking in, I expect it seems magical to be an Artist.  And in many ways it is!  I wouldn’t change it for anything.  But it is definitely not easy.  I can’t speak for every artist out there, but I do have many friends/connections in the art world.  It seems that the struggle is not just mine.

So today I am being more transparent than usual, and that is because I’m bored with my blog and Facebook postings.  I haven’t done either in quite a while.

I don’t want to say anything if I’m not passionate about it.

I am passionate about art.  I’m grateful for the healing it has brought me.  I want to share that with anyone who might benefit from hearing my story.  I don’t have it all figured out – that is for sure.  But I do have a great deal of personal experience in digging deep and being vulnerable.

I am also passionate about sharing anything I can to help others in their journey.  I don’t know whether to call it a ‘creative journey’ or a ‘healing journey’…….I think the two go hand in hand.  They certainly have for me.

On the ‘business end’ of things, it’s way past time for me to create a new website.  I’m not looking forward to doing it, but my current site is not ‘responsive’ (ie, not mobile friendly), and it has reached the point that I am tired of apologising for it.

One of the things I LEAST like to do is photograph my paintings.  I am not very good at it, to begin with, and the editing part (cropping and adjusting exposure) is very tedious.  Recently when I was looking at my website gallery I was not impressed with how my paintings looked on my computer screen.  When I looked at them on my phone, they looked a bit better, but many of them didn’t display at all (due to the non-responsive website).

Ahhhhh – so many things to deal with that have very little to do with actually painting!

Part of the reason I’m inspired to improve my website is that I have sold several paintings online lately.  I always look forward to hearing from my Collectors once they receive their painting – I know if they liked it when they saw a photo, they will LOVE it so much more when they see it in person.  These two paintings recently went to a Collector in Virginia.

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Season of Reflection IV 36×48

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Seascape – Black & White 24×30

Thanks for your interest and support. I would love to hear from you!

Jenn